Dear Vince

i read my horoscope for today and it said that today i am going to make a big decision in my life and yes i actually am. It also said there that i should think about it but i'm pretty convinced i don't have to anymore. I have thought about it for so many weeks already and i just think that it's gotta end because i'm only hurting myself and i'm almost about to lose it...i can't let that happen... Yes, today i am saying goodbye vince...i'm lettng you go now...i'm letting go of hoping that we can still be together...i'm letting go of the dream of keeping you forever in my heart...i guess it's just too much to ask and as what i said before, we can't force the heart who to love and i guess i can't force your heart to love me....yes you loved me before it was my fairytale and just like all tales it has an ending and that's why it ended and though it's sad and it's hard i just have to accept that...so i'm saying goodbye to my one handsome prince in my fairytale lovestory...i'm going to miss you a lot and i'm still probably going to cry on the times that i will feel so lonely, times when i'm really going to miss you because i know that i still love you and i probably still will be loving you for a long time...i'm going to take the other road now and slowly take my steps...i'm going to enjoy my life and do the things i have always wanted to do.. i'll be wiser now as i take each step in fulfilling my dreams...and perhaps one day i'm going to dream of falling in love again...
...i'm gonna miss you, i've always wanted us to be happy but i guess we just can't be...bye soy, take care always....

Dear Vince

i just hate when i miss you. Its your birthday today and i can't sleep just trying to figure out if i should greet you or not. Why does it have to be so hard. I'm so scared of what you are going to say. And then as i look at my phone i again received those messages from your ym. Those messages that you said were spam mails. Why do i have tp receive those msgs from you and your the only one that has an account that keeps on generating spam. I always ends up assuming that you miss me too. So here I am again about to make a fool of myself...i have decided to greet you...i don't know what you are going to say and i hate the fact that i still assume in my mind that you still have feelings for me and that there is a chance for us to get back together....i hate it it kills me inside because it brings me back again to square one....

Dear Vince

It's been a more than a month now since we broke up...tomorrow it'll be your birthday and here I am staring at your name wondering if i should greet you or not...i miss you still...I can't decide what to do...i wonder... do you even miss me too?...hai...would you want me to greet you?...if only god would give me a sign...i'll probably just greet you here....i don't know...

...today is again one of those days that i really get to miss you..i don't know why but i still wish we could work things out...but i can't do it on my own, so it's useless because i know you have let go...i just wish you at least tried or even considered the option ...i hate missing you because i know i'm only hurting myself more...

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Hi soy, i just texted you earlier today and i'm sorry i just can't help it...i know you are right letting go is the best thing to do but why does it have to hurt so much? ...you were the best thing that happened to me and i will never forget you...thank you for replying to my text for being man enough to admit your fault...thank you for understanding how i feel, i just hope that i didn't have to feel this pain...i will let you go, slowly but i will....i hope we can be friends in time...thanks for everything....

letter to vince 4/19/2009

dear vince,

i'm sorry for last night..i can't help but think how foolish i am for thinking that you still care. I don't mean to push myself to you, it's just that i can't let you go yet. I want to see you, i miss you so much...i hope one day we can be good friends still, i guess that will be my wish because i know that there is no room in your heart for us....

Letters to vincent

dear vince,
how are you.. i miss you a lot but i don't want to let you know. Im still hurting, you've hurt me a lot. I wish i can make the pain go away but i can't. I'm mad at you not because you broke up with me but because you've made me believe for so long that you love me. I remember the last time we spent time together, you said you're going to make up for our lost time and that i don't need to worry about anything then last Saturday you tell me you're not happy with me anymore, that you don't feel the same way like before. You just don't love me anymore. I've never felt so stupid in my life because i saw it coming but i didn't believe it. My friends have been telling me about it but i didn't believe them not until i heard it from you. The only thing i'm thankful for is that i finally got it all clear but still why did you have to keep it for too long. It hurts a lot, you made me live in false hopes and lies. I'm still mad at you because i'm still hurting. It sucks that i am hoping that you miss me and that you think of me sometimes. It sucks that i still want you to be with me and work things out. That's why i'm not going to tell you about it because i know in my heart that i have to let go. I can't keep you, i can't let myself do that. I remember our first day as a couple, you held my hand and kissed it, you said you're the happiest person on earth. It was a magical night, we had a lot of magical times that's probably why it hurts so much. I couldn't think of anything to say to you anymore except that i wish you talked to me about how you felt but you're a coward, you always have been. You can't tell me in my face that you don't love me anymore. You can't admit to me that you were wrong about what you did. You're too scared to feel my pain. I love you and it hurts, it will hurt for a long time. I don't know when i will be okay but i hope that time comes soon...