Letters to vincent

dear vince,
how are you.. i miss you a lot but i don't want to let you know. Im still hurting, you've hurt me a lot. I wish i can make the pain go away but i can't. I'm mad at you not because you broke up with me but because you've made me believe for so long that you love me. I remember the last time we spent time together, you said you're going to make up for our lost time and that i don't need to worry about anything then last Saturday you tell me you're not happy with me anymore, that you don't feel the same way like before. You just don't love me anymore. I've never felt so stupid in my life because i saw it coming but i didn't believe it. My friends have been telling me about it but i didn't believe them not until i heard it from you. The only thing i'm thankful for is that i finally got it all clear but still why did you have to keep it for too long. It hurts a lot, you made me live in false hopes and lies. I'm still mad at you because i'm still hurting. It sucks that i am hoping that you miss me and that you think of me sometimes. It sucks that i still want you to be with me and work things out. That's why i'm not going to tell you about it because i know in my heart that i have to let go. I can't keep you, i can't let myself do that. I remember our first day as a couple, you held my hand and kissed it, you said you're the happiest person on earth. It was a magical night, we had a lot of magical times that's probably why it hurts so much. I couldn't think of anything to say to you anymore except that i wish you talked to me about how you felt but you're a coward, you always have been. You can't tell me in my face that you don't love me anymore. You can't admit to me that you were wrong about what you did. You're too scared to feel my pain. I love you and it hurts, it will hurt for a long time. I don't know when i will be okay but i hope that time comes soon...